I am glad you are not going to kill yourself and I wish I had read this earlier to prevent you from going through with it. I know how you feel, I basically quit school when my grandma died becasue she was very close to me. If you wanna E-Mail me go ahead it'sltracerx@hotmail.com. My deepest sympathy to you and all of your friends and relatives.

 

My condolance to you and the rest of your family.While I still have my parents, I know the feeling of loss.I lost an uncle,two grandparents and two newborn brothers in treee years.If that does'nt make you feel there is no God nothing will.But like everyone said the best you can do is talk about it instead of being a tough guy.Men try to act tough and not cry.It doesn't help.Good luck and remember there is a God and (even though you think he doesn't)he does care about you.